The Girl...I'm sorry too

I cant say much...but u are the first girl as a friend that i have reali trusted and loved...like a real sister <3....but u are also the only girl who has hurt me and even made me ***...dun wanna say here...just let ppl who noe jiu enough ler =)

U were a lot of things...my best friend...my sister ...my consoler...when i was lonely, sad, happy...u were the first person i tell...even before my Bro ( tj sorry >< ). But now thinking all that we've gone through over the year...feel like I reali dont want face lor...give u say all those words..me still want to stay by your side..sumtimes I feel like I reali 不要脸lor =(

But u were also there 4 me when i needed u...maybe that is y I still need you...maybe i'm just the lonely girl who needs your shoulders when i need accompany ...that's just the side people never noe about me....

there's a lot of things i wanna say to you...but still...i think u will no feel der...cause at last the only person who will get hurt is ME !! that is why when i think for you...many people ask me why i border about u...people say :" It is her life, her choice...u dun need care so much der..just do your own work !"...u see i reali care for you...but how can sumone not care for THEMSELVES ?? i reali dunnoe u liao...

 U CHANGED !! u used to be the girl who knew wat was right & wrong...but now u are blinded by LOVE that u even 4gotten who u used to be...u reali changed ...& i've told u but looks like he is more important to you...so i give up ler...u continue liddis...but when he lets u down...i wonder wat will you do ??

u have said sorry...but u dun even noe wat was u'r mistake...People say: LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKE...i guess u will never noe then...not every sorry has a I FORGIVE U behind it...remember that...i also wish or friendship wasn't lidddis...but ...i reali dont noe wat to say to you ...

I'M SORRY...I DON'T NOE WAT TO SAY TO YOU ><

Someone like U

Who are "YOU"...u'll are wondering...


u are my special sumone....i first knew you in 2011...tis year, u were close to me, but not anymore & I really don't know what happened =(  


We were vry close as friends to me lar...I guess u trusted me wit all u'r secrets and so did I...I still remember when i saw u wit u'r heart broken into pieces...U reali loved her...I could tell, she didnt want to continue and u slowly moved on...But that face of yours, I could see u were hurting & it hurts me to see you like that. For 1 week u were down & i couldnt bear to see u like that D;


lets see,on the first day , the first words u said to me was: 'err...does it look bad ?'...then slowly we talked and we really had fun just getting to noe each other...u were pretty cool actually...i never got to tell u that..We had a lot in common, examples.. music & sports . We loved Music. We even always made jokes of of "best budddy" that we "loved"...u reali was a friend that I enjoy being wit..there is no way i could describe all of you..just the part that i LOVE about U..

Now...the part where i start to fall in love wit u..but WAIT !!...seriously not to hurt you or anythin...u'r not like the others...u'r DIFFERENT...thats what i liked about you...u didn't give a shit about what others said about u...
U were...funny...joker...sensitive...trust worthy..loving...kind..down to earth..really a great friend...and so much more <3

BUT.. every friendship always has their arguments and fights...we had "some" too ><...I really dont know y u would ask me to SHUT UP suddenly ...but i also was a little sensitive and we had 
THE COLD WAR which lasted 1 freakin week...imagine that !! man, that 1 freakin week it was boring like SHIT!! I didnt want to be the one to break the ice...it seemed to me at that point of time that it wasnt my fault..zz...seriously..not talkin to u  killed me...thats when i started to realize...u reali meant a lot to me >< 

 I never really thought u would mean so much to me..I slowly fell for u not realizing it..friends asked me if I liked u...but i said no..WE'RE JUST FRIENDS...those famous words..i really didnt know that i was starting to like you...

then after a week..we started to talk back...but my oh my...it was AWKWARD ><...then there was the time u completely HURT me by sayin those words...it really broke me...but i never thought u would apologize...and U DID...seeing u'r message pop up...MY HEART SKIPPED A BEAT !!...I called my bro and told him...i was like goin nuts...seeing you sayin SORRY..u reali made LOVE U...

I still remember all those memories when we Reali Could Just talk...not like now..we just lost watever we had...U CHANGED !! since then...all we ever did was ask questions...I felt like u started to hate me or sumthin...i always wondered y, but never reali had the guts to ask you wats wrong or just a simple 'WHY' ?...but there were times u were CHILDISH and AN ARSE !! trust me...u changed because of her...the WITCH..or the B**** !! and u slowly drifted a part...so far away that i feel like I LOST YOU...

There were also lovely times when u complimented me and of course I LIKED IT ><...but i guess u won't noe ,would you ? I really wish i could tell you how much i LIKED you ..it was like more than a friend =) but i knew that it was impossible to even think of it...so i tried to let you go, knowing that it would be a fairy tale or a dream that would NEVER come true </3...

But there is one thing i will do before we separate & leave 4ever...and that is..
I WILL TELL U THAT I HAVE LiKED U & maybe still do....trust me i REALLY WILL !! 

That is one thing i can PROMISE ><

that's all...hope u enjoy reading tis =)

tis is really the TRUTH...I LIKE U
&...I hope to find SOMEONE LIKE U
or JUST YOU...